1 Year Ago

One year ago, I moved here to Playa. I cant believe it has been a year!! So much has happened and it also flew by so fast. My life did a complete 180 and my life here is so different than my life back at home in Illinois.
I looked back on my last post of my old blog that I told myself I would keep up on, and didnt (this happens a lot). The post said something like, 'i have 33 more days left here in Illinois..'. The whole layout of the blog, my pictures was so....not me. Not the person I am now. It made me realize how much I didnt know about myself until I was on my own here. I still have so much to learn but I felt like the girl in those pictures was a stranger or something, such a weird feeling.
So, therefore, I have decided to start a BRAND NEW blog, that I hope to keep up on. Seriously, Im really going to try this time!! ................


My laptop is dead, wont even turn on and needs a new battery so I am on the 'house computer'. Because of this, the blog is very boring looking, but I promise that will change.

I am going home in less than a week for two weeks and I am nothing but STOKED to see everyone. The last trip I made home was a very hardawkward time for me. Now I am ready to see everyone and enjoy being with them. I am sooo ready. I have talked to Braxton & Waloah (nephew.neice) on the phone and cant believe how much they are both talking. It kind of makes me sad to think about all the 'firsts' I missed with Loah and Braxton growing up. I am pulled in two different directions of my life, and to be honest, I feel like I have 2 different lifes completely.
I have this life.....
in Mexico with Lalo in our apartment, in this amazing tropical setting, beautiful weather everyday. I feel so free all the time. I ride my bicycle around and explore different places, all so beautiful. I have to be an adult and support myself in whatever way I can. I do what I want, when I want. And it just feels right
And my life back in Illinois....
with my wonderful family. My best friends that I know I will carry with me for the rest of my life. School, or whatever job I may be working. Living with my parents and Tyler, which, YES, I DO miss. I realized really fast how much my Mom did for us. You go for more juice or food in the fride or whatever and its not restocked or when you go for toilet paper, and its not there because you didnt buy more, or the toothpaste or...the laundry even, EVERYTHING my mom did. AND I MISS THAT!!! I cant wait to go back home so I can be spoiled by her for 2 weeks :)

I feel like I am doing and living the right life right now for me. I am very happy and couldnt ask for more. I live very, VERY simple here and have a lot of free time to do whatever it is I want to do. After all those years of anticipating moving here to Playa, it still doesnt feel like a reality. I wake up everymorning and feel so lucky to still be here.
I cant wait to come back and start a REAL job. Not one that includes a bar or alcohol! :p

I have so much I am looking forward to in this life. It has been so beautiful so far and who knows where I will be next year at this time......
thats what keeps me going!

Much more later, with fotos soon.

yours truly