Its SO SURREAL im home.












...........but



I LOVE IT!!!

Home Sweet Home

I am home!!!

It feels sooo great to see all my family and friends!
The first night I was welcomed here at my house with friends and jagerbombs :)

It's been so nice to see everyone and visit with my family.

I had to visit all the doctors possible and make sure my body is nice & healthy.

My neice and nephew are way cuter than I could have ever imagined and I am so happy to be around them as much as possible.

There are a lot of things I really want to do while Im here, and lots of food I want to eat :)

Im going to be at least 10 pounds heavier by the time I come home, Ive already warned Lalo!

I miss him like crazy, but know this is such a good thing for us, to be apart for a while.
I cant wait to go back to MX and start working, & working hard, making money for all the things I want to do, places I want to gooooo

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.....just a few pictures from the past few days/weeks..........

My beautiful baby girl.

Two of my best girls.

Playing dress-up.

More later~!!

24 Hours and Counting....

Today I went a printed off my ticket, bought the rest of the gifts, and spent my last day with Lalo :)

Yesterday he didnt have to work so Santi, Goofy, Lalo & I went to La Sirenita for lunch. They have really cheap seafood and its really good. We took some shots of tequila and felt good. We walked the avenue with some kawamas and stopped at a few places along the way. We got home around 7 ish and slept the drunkness off a bit then me and Lalo went to Playasia to eat. It was sooooo good. Its such a cool restauarant. You feel like your eating in the trees in a treehouse.

I am finishing up packing tonight. I leave Playa at 7 in the morning. I havent been up at 7 for a very very very long time. So well see how easy i roll out of bed. :)

the Buddha shirt I did, not finished

Another one I did, not finished

Cherries, not finished

Frida Kahlo's Heart by Estefa

There will be more pictures as I get more finished and done.

More later....

Los nubes,.... no me importa!

Today has been really cloudy, yesterday as well, but I really dont mind it. Its such a nice break from sunny weather every single day. Last night we were lucky enough to get rain!! It was so peaceful.

Yesterday I went with Estefa and bought some more tshirts for painting and altogether yesterday I painted 4. and they turned out great!! I was really proud of myself haha.
I have never REALLY tried painting something and when I did I surprised myself at how well I did. I cant wait to show my mom, Ive been telling her all about them and I think shes more excited than I am.

Countdown = 3 days until I am home to visit. I have soooo much to get done the first few days, but I think I will manage. I have to get alllll my body checked out to make sure Im still healthy :)
I bought my family a few presents that I know they are going to just love, and I am so excited for them to see them!! We are going to celebrate Christmas when I come home and am sooo excited. This Christwas was SO WEIRD. It was sunny, very hot, everyone had to work, and it didnt feel like 'Christmas' but it didnt matter too much because Christmas isnt about all the decorations and the presents and ...all that stuff. I think a lot of people forget the TRUE meaning of Christmas. Here in Mexico they have a day on the 6th of January for the three wise men. Children get to ask for 3 presents, just like the three wisemen brought Jesus three presents.
Its a way better concept I think.

Anywhooo, enough about Christmas.

Yesterday I was walking with Estefa by MEGA (like Walmart) and came upon a car with a loud voicebox thing announcing a circus, behind the car was a small cage that held a HUGE grizzly bear. I have never been so upset about an animal like I was with him. Estefa and I were holding back tears as we were looking at the sad bear just staring back at us screaming silently to let him out, FREE HIM. The two slimy men that were there selling tickets for the 'circus' wouldnt claim that they were the trainers. They were filthy men that were only in it for the money. I couldnt help but think about allthe horrible things that bear must have gone through to be 'trained' for that circus. There was nothing I could do,....and that killed me. I was crushed about this alll last night.
:'(

Today Lalo and I walked the avenue and talked and laugh.
He makes me feel alive. Tonight Im going to a movie with Stef and then packing to COME HOME!!
I am finally getting some pictures uploaded from my camera onto this computer so let see if it works.

Moooore later. =)

Paint-Stained Fingers

Ohhh what a good day it has been!

This morning I woke up with Lalo and we went out to eat for lunch. We wanted to go to a cafe type place but it was way overpriced, thats Playa for ya.
Instead of going there we went next door to get some Arrechera y papas!! (Steak & potatoes)
My faaavorite food now I think is potatoes, made however. yummy
Then we went to Mega so I can buy more tshirts to paint.
I think Im addicted to painting now. I painted all the tshirts I bought in 2 and a half hours!!! They turned out pretty good :)
I think I need to buy some other paints because when the paint dries its really hard and i dont know how well its going to wash either....oooooooh well we will see.
Im soooooo excited to see home, its getting closer and closer !! :) I havebeen looking for some Christmas presents for my family and need to get a few more tomorrow.

Tonight is movie night.
More later.

1 Year Ago

One year ago, I moved here to Playa. I cant believe it has been a year!! So much has happened and it also flew by so fast. My life did a complete 180 and my life here is so different than my life back at home in Illinois.
I looked back on my last post of my old blog that I told myself I would keep up on, and didnt (this happens a lot). The post said something like, 'i have 33 more days left here in Illinois..'. The whole layout of the blog, my pictures was so....not me. Not the person I am now. It made me realize how much I didnt know about myself until I was on my own here. I still have so much to learn but I felt like the girl in those pictures was a stranger or something, such a weird feeling.
So, therefore, I have decided to start a BRAND NEW blog, that I hope to keep up on. Seriously, Im really going to try this time!! ................


My laptop is dead, wont even turn on and needs a new battery so I am on the 'house computer'. Because of this, the blog is very boring looking, but I promise that will change.

I am going home in less than a week for two weeks and I am nothing but STOKED to see everyone. The last trip I made home was a very hardawkward time for me. Now I am ready to see everyone and enjoy being with them. I am sooo ready. I have talked to Braxton & Waloah (nephew.neice) on the phone and cant believe how much they are both talking. It kind of makes me sad to think about all the 'firsts' I missed with Loah and Braxton growing up. I am pulled in two different directions of my life, and to be honest, I feel like I have 2 different lifes completely.
I have this life.....
in Mexico with Lalo in our apartment, in this amazing tropical setting, beautiful weather everyday. I feel so free all the time. I ride my bicycle around and explore different places, all so beautiful. I have to be an adult and support myself in whatever way I can. I do what I want, when I want. And it just feels right
And my life back in Illinois....
with my wonderful family. My best friends that I know I will carry with me for the rest of my life. School, or whatever job I may be working. Living with my parents and Tyler, which, YES, I DO miss. I realized really fast how much my Mom did for us. You go for more juice or food in the fride or whatever and its not restocked or when you go for toilet paper, and its not there because you didnt buy more, or the toothpaste or...the laundry even, EVERYTHING my mom did. AND I MISS THAT!!! I cant wait to go back home so I can be spoiled by her for 2 weeks :)

I feel like I am doing and living the right life right now for me. I am very happy and couldnt ask for more. I live very, VERY simple here and have a lot of free time to do whatever it is I want to do. After all those years of anticipating moving here to Playa, it still doesnt feel like a reality. I wake up everymorning and feel so lucky to still be here.
I cant wait to come back and start a REAL job. Not one that includes a bar or alcohol! :p

I have so much I am looking forward to in this life. It has been so beautiful so far and who knows where I will be next year at this time......
thats what keeps me going!

Much more later, with fotos soon.

yours truly